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| Happy New Year Jonathan |
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| Written by Shelley |
| Thursday, 31 December 2009 19:03 |
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I was going to put this on FaceBook but it seemed like having the pictures come in would be a good thing. So now it's been modified a bit since well it's on my site LOL. This is going to be girlie girl mushy. I'd say sorry but really if you don't like syrup don't tap a damn maple tree - K! Just sayin. A quick look back. Nov 22, 2008 was our first "date" and Artumnal. How many times did I ask when you'd come home? It was also the first time you told me you loved me. Nov 26, 2008 you called and said you were coming home. You took the patriarch job at the theatre. I said I didn't like it and you told me: "Don't to worry. It's so I can come home sooner. And that's what you want - right?" Yeh that's what I wanted. I just didn't realize what it truly meant. Dec 10, 2008 - You were home; well in Oakland anyway. Dec 21, 2008 - You went back to Vegas for the Holidays. bleh! I wasn't happy. remember? Dec 24, 2008 - This site was my Christmas present 2008 remember. You called me on Christmas Eve to tell me you loved me and to give it to me all installed and created. Written by you for me. It was a very precious gift. I cried when the server crashed and it was lost. It's not the same but it lives still instilled with "us" energy. Jan 6, 2009 - You were back in Oakland Jan 9, 2009 - You left the theatre group Jan 11, 2009 - You were at Sunshine Jan 23, 2009 - Alex was at Sunshine and you were in Berkley at CouchSurfing. That's when the fun really began. I could go on but this is how my 2008 year ended and my 2009 year started. I hadn't cried for missing you until I wrote this. It's been cathartic. That was the beginning of one of the most interesting years - 2009.I've wondered what I would tell you after this year. This feels like the place, the space and the right thoughts to share. In the past year plus we've gotten really close. Two hearts one heartbeat in many ways. Miles away where time doesn't match and yet you are here flitting into my energy and my space all the time. When I think of this year with you the thing that impacts my mind most often for me is photos from wdydwyd.  2008 Burn when we met. This is how I remember you on first meet. Though I think the hat was missing its a solid fit. You've become a huge part of my life. I am richer for you. I hope your dog tags are with you. I hope it means as much to you as it did to me to create this.   ~~  I love watching you move towards more honesty, transparency and truth. And yes you must acknowledge it and let it out. ~~ But of them all as you know the one that impacted me most was this one  I doubt I could explain here in less that a million words but you know. We've talked about your Dad a lot. His spirit and his influence on you and on me. I also love that in the picture above and in this picture you are him and he is you! You know I love you both dearly.~~And I leave you with these  Remember no matter where we wander or how often we wonder; we always have a home to come back to. This land this place it embraces you, me and us.
Never more than a heart beat away.
Always listening to your heart and appreciating it's beat.I love you. |
| Last Updated on Friday, 01 January 2010 18:21 |
